Contains bitterness and resentment


Last night I found an old blog back up and conjured up some trickery to make it all readable again. It’s been merged into this blog now. My history from 2005 until 2011. That’s a lot of time. I’ve been spending time reviewing my life. Almost ten years worth.
Reading back and seeing the person I used to be has been an eye opener. Someone said on The Twitter, “I bet you’ve changed loads”. More than I can express in mere words. I’m more positive, tolerant, happy. Things might be tough now but things are nowhere near as bad as they used to be. Reading back into my past I was a deeply troubled negative person for a long time. I hated my job. I hated my relationship. I hated me.

I suppose that history has taught be that things have a way of improving if you just stick. So I’m sticking. Holding. Standing in place. With a bit of luck as times passes my lot will improve just as it did in the past. All it takes is time, right?

The tagline for the old blog was “Contains bitterness and resentment”, and I’ve left that in place as a reminder.┬áBecause that was me. Bitter. Resentful. But I made it. I improved. I developed a positive outlook. I may have taken one step backwards recently, but I’m committed to making two steps forwards soon.

Things will work themselves out. Of that I have no doubt.


Is this thing on? I’m alsarcastic

I used to have a blog a long time ago. I kept it for five years. It saw me through relationships, jobs, the birth of a child, the breakdown of friendships, online endeavours that went well and those which went not so well. It was an honest, faithful companion. Through thick and thin, there it was. For me to vent, opine, whine, discuss, or laugh. Memories were caught and kept. Lessons learned were always at hand.

But then somewhere somewhen I stopped. Just stopped. I forgot it. Stopped posting. Stopped submitting my memories. Stopped storing my thoughts. Stopped capturing my emotions.

And truth be told, I miss it, so now there’s this. For me to capture and keep all the things I want or need to catch or keep. Good and bad. Beautiful and ugly. Lessons learned and experiences best forgot.

If you want to take a peak into my life or into my mind then this is the window to look through. I can’t promise you’ll like what you’ll see, but I can promise you’ll get an eyeful of alsarcastic.